Not Writing

It was my plan to finally get started on my fiction writing last night. But I just couldn't focus. Could barely even think of a sentence. I ended up just sitting on the couch staring at the TV, feeling like all my energy was bleeding away, not even able to follow the plot of the show I was watching. Though that could also be because the show wasn't very good and had a scattered plot. No context, shitty inner monologues, not the best special effects. Still, it was enough to keep me staring at the screen for a while instead of writing. I'm actually trying to write while an episode of it plays now. It's very distracting, but I can't seem to find the will to move somewhere else.

The problem is that I still don't have a proper place to write. And I'm just procrastinating like crazy. I remember reading somewhere that the hardest and easiest part of writing is just sitting down and actually writing. It wasn't always this hard. I used to write every day without such a struggle, but I had far fewer responsibilities and more time. I think if I set a goal of writing for at least a half hour a day, that might help. Not too ambitious, but long enough to get an OK amount done.

In other news, I'm worried I might be developing carpal tunnel syndrome or arthritis in my wrist from the amount of time I spend at a computer each day. So, if I'm going to be spending a lot of my free time writing at a computer as well, I'm going to have to figure out how to prevent ergonomic injuries. Even handwriting still puts a lot of pressure on the wrist, so I'm not sure if writing on paper instead will help. Sitting at the couch with my laptop isn't exactly the best setup either.

Anyway, all I'm doing is writing about not writing and that's not helpful. Maybe that's what this site will become. Writing about how I can't write or find the time to write or be anywhere near successful at writing, except in writing about failing to write.